Matilda Mae Remembers

Today I attended the Matilda Mae Remembers Service organised by Jennie to remember Matilda Mae and all babies gone too soon.  

1 Year On

One year ago today a baby i knew died. 

A baby i saw regularly

A baby that had sat on my knee.

A baby not dissimilar in age to my own at the time.

That baby, as most of you know, was Matilda Mae.

I know her Mummy finds it difficult to keep in contact since the arrival of baby Benjamin.

I just want her to know that she is not forgotten & I think about her & Matilda every day x

A Mile in Memory of Matilda Mae

 

Today I watched a Mummy walk a mile
No Mummy should have to tread
A mile in memory of her daughter
Who is now 3 months dead.

It was a beautiful walk through the bluebells
With family and friends at her side
But a walk underpinned with sadness
For a baby girl who died.

Today i watched many others walk a mile
Braving the threat of rain
To raise valuable funds for more research
In the hope this never happens again.

They sang and blew bubble kisses
Which floated away up high
To show that they'd not forgotten
The brightest new star in the sky.

Today I walked a mile
To also show this Mummy I care
To show her that through the weeks and months ahead
I will continue to be there.

Our children are such a precious gift
Cherish them every minute of every day
And please take a few moments
To remember beautiful Matilda Mae.

xxx

Jennie and her fellow mummy bloggers have organised an online auction to raise funds for The Lullaby Trust in Matilda's memory.  The auction started at 11am today and will run for 9 days.  Further details can be found here and a direct link to the items in Ebay can be found here

Happy 1st Birthday Matilda Mae

I'm so sorry that today wasn't the day your Mummy and Daddy dreamt it would be.

That you're not excitedly unwrapping your presents with your brother and sister.

That you haven't been spending this week enjoying your first holiday with your family.

However I am so glad I was lucky enough to know you, to cuddle you, to see you cheeky smile and big brown eyes. 

 The only photo I have of C (far left) and Tilda (far right) (and S (centre) - Baked Potato Mummy)                                             

                                

I wish I had a picture of the time I had you sat on one knee and C on the other. Amusingly thinking to myself that this is what it would be like to have two. I wish I had known that was the last time I would see you.
 
Instead of buying you a birthday present today, I have donated that money to The Lullaby Trust.

Tonight I will light a candle in your honour.

I hope you are enjoying your birthday in the sky xxx

 Forever linked - never forgotten x                                    

              

 

Jennie and her fellow mummy bloggers have organised an online auction to raise funds for The Lullaby Trust in Matilda's memory.  Further details can be found here

This post was written as part of a blog hop for Matilda's 1st Birthday. You can view the other entries here:

 

Inguinal Hernia Surgery

As mentioned previously, C had a large lump on her groin that kept coming and going.  I suspected it was probably a hernia. In January we took her to see our GP and although the lump was not visible for the Dr to examine, the photo I had managed to take a few days before was convincing enough for him to refer us to a Consultant Paediatrician at our local hospital. Unfortunately he was spread across all the hospitals in our region and only available in our local hospital once a month. We were therefore warned that it may be a couple of months until we got to see him. 

We eventually received an appointment date of 22^nd March.  In the meantime I was noticing C’s suspected hernia more and more frequently. In seemed most visible in early afternoon after a bowel movement however didn’t appear to be causing her any distress.  

A couple of weeks ago, a week after her 1st birthday, C was being grumpier than normal.  This soon deteriorated into howls of pain.  Nothing I could do would soothe her, it was quite distressing.  I should stress again that at no point until now had her hernia caused her any noticeable distress, therefore it was just a passing thought to check her groin at this point. I was shocked to see a lump swollen to the size of a golf ball and rock solid.  I ran into DH’s room where he was on a conference call and gesticulated wildly at him. After making his excuses to his colleagues and taking one look at C, we are in the car on the way to A&E.